Day 7

I just responded to a facebook update of one of my "friends" and was actually very disappointed. I'm not defending Bush, but it seems like in 2010 people would get over blaming him for events that are happening outside his administration. Obama is in the White House now, and he isn't doing any better at addressing the issues with our airports and borders and it all stems from not wanting to offend Muslims.

I have no qualms with writing this, but the terrorist attacks and attempted terrorist attacks that have happened since 9/11 (globally) have been perpetrated by Muslims. It would seem only logical to profile and be extra cautious with Muslims instead of making air travel miserable for everybody.

If you are American, aren't you tired of the bologna? And if you are Muslim why do you want to live in America if you don't want to live like an American?

Hung by the Tongue

I just finished reading Hung by the Tongue by Francis P. Martin. I have to warn you, if God and Jesus Christ make your head spin or you find the mere mention of Jesus offensive or sends you into a rage, this book is not for you.

I was looking for guidance but I went looking for it from the wrong person. Never take advice from an unbeliever. They will always steer you away from the Gospel. This guy who used to be my friend pretty much told me there is something wrong with me because I'm not a nymphomaniac. I'm also not in debt up to my eyeballs but apparently being debt free isn't a virtue.

I had a rather interesting conversation with someone I met at a meetup. He's a great guy but his heart isn't pure. He doesn't believe in marriage because he doesn't want to get a divorce but he totally believes in promiscuity and sees nothing wrong with it. I expressed my opinion on that subject without offending or expecting him to conform to my beliefs. We had a good conversation. I would never date the guy but I would like to speak to him more.

I'm way off topic and I'm tired. I think besides blogging, I would like to post one coherent blog this year. Maybe I should blog in the mornings.

How do you define success?

I just had someone tear me down through a text message. I have to keep my respect for him for that, at least he didn’t do it behind my back.

I could have told my friends that I want to be a writer, and we all know how broke majority of writers are, and I would get more encouragement than I could stand. I would have to beg them to shut up and stop being so positive and encouraging with me and my desire to be a writer. People are encouraging as long as you want to be broke. I haven’t made much money with my business but I have definitely made a heck of a lot more money with my business than with my writing. But according to everyone, network marketing doesn’t work.

The people who tried network marketing and quit or never bothered to try it all believe it doesn’t work. Of course it didn’t work for them. They QUIT! They gave up and threw in the towel. Nothing ever works when you quit.

According to the "friend(s)" who tore me down, success is when I’m an indebted, nymphomaniac happily working for somebody else. I should be living in a house I can’t afford, staying at home watching reality tv because I don’t have money to go out, and sleeping with every Tom, Dick, and Harry. Yep, success according to the masses.

Day 4

Day 4 and I so wanted to go to bed without blogging. But I made blogging once a day one of my goals. I didn't get my name and number for the day but I'll be sure to get it tomorrow. I'm not aggressive enough. I should just do it already. Approach everyone I come across. For some reason, I see people and they seem to like their lives and don't want to do much about it.

This is the year. This is the year that I hit some milestones. This is the year I become a stalker find some love.

I think flirting is what I need to do. I need to flirt like heck.

Or maybe not. Dating isn't all it's cracked up to be. If I had to categorize it as a movie genre, I'd say it ranks right up there with horror/thriller with a dash of comedy. Nothing romantic about it at all. Or it could be that I'm not a romantic person. I hate romance. I do like to cuddle as long as the guy smells good.

I need to go to bed now. I still have to do my daily reading. Good night, sleep tight, and don't let the bed bugs bite!

Day 3

I went to church today and learned a few things about what I need to do this year regarding my faith. We had guest speakers during the morning and evening services instead of our Pastor. Our Pastor and his family are going through some things and he could not be with us tonight to communicate Vision Night for the church.

But I did learn some things which I had not considered before. Like, does prayer matter? Does God hear my prayers? I never pray for myself but even before was saved I did pray for others. But what I want or need for myself? For example, if I prayed for a man and was specific about the qualities I want in him, would my prayer be answered?

I've learned there are things I should never pray for like patience and and money. Ask for wisdom and endurance instead.

In regards to weakness and strength, during the service tonight the guest speaker spoke of how God often makes us stronger when we are our weakest. It reminded me of that saying what doesn't kill us makes us stronger. For example, when we are exposed to disease for the first time, we get sick. However, when we are sick we build up an immunity to the disease which makes us stronger and more able to fight what ails us when we experience it again. Makes sense. I haven't been tested to see if I am strong. My life has been easy so far (I'm so not asking for a test either) and I hope that anything that comes my way I will be able to handle it.

Day 2

I was invited to join another meetup group in L.A. so I accepted the invitation. The organizer is really nice. She took the time out of her day to email me.

I haven't been keeping up with my goals this year and it's only day 2. At least I'm getting the blogging thing done with. My goal to get one name and phone number a day. I don't feel like leaving the house.

The good news is my calendar is getting full for the weekends.

I have no desire to blog. Though I have enjoyed watching movies with the main characters being writers.

I watched Julie and Julia and completely enjoyed the movie. I think blogging through a cookbook is an excellent idea though I don't have time to cook. So I guess my blog's theme this year will be blogging my experience with building a business.

I'm watching Confessions of a Shopaholic. Her parents spent their life savings on a dump of a motor home. They obviously did not save much money or they didn't make enough money to begin with to save a decent amount of money for something worth while. Note to anyone reading today's entry: NOBODY EVER GOT RICH SAVING MONEY. Did you get that? I've realized though some people are perfectly happy being absolutely and undeniably ignorant about money. For example, someone I know is perfectly content about spending money without having any additional income.

Normally, I'd say people have the right to be ignoramuses about money, but because tax payers like myself who are responsible with money end up footing the bill thanks to all the government bailouts.

If I could give anyone advice regarding money it would be this: Read as much as you can on the subject of money and find someone (with money) to mentor you. What I mean when I write someone with money, I mean someone who makes money not earns money from a job. Profits are better than wages.

Good night.

Happy New Year

I've been too busy these past few months and I suspect my life will only get busier in 2010. I've met a lot of new people and cut myself off from some of the old.

I do know that for next year, I will blog more regularly. I don't know why I haven't made time for blogging as I made time for it while I was in school. There's certainly plenty to blog about. I guess my New Year's resolution regarding my blogging is to blog more. I could do another 365 project. For year 2010 I want to focus on the growth of my business. My goal is to reach double eagle. Will I be able to do it?

I think I will also make time for a love life. This area has never been easy for me. I do know one thing for sure, I still don't like chronically unemployed men.

I think I'm going to spend my holidays on a beach somewhere. I want to spend it with my family anymore. I have never met any group of people more socialist and cracked out on slavery than some of the people in my family. All they talk about is what the government is going to do. Obama is the greatest.

On top of all that, the talk about slavery is just disgusting. Get over it all ready. I think that is why I picked the verses from Philippians. Let go of the past and look toward the future. I'm tired of taking depressing trips down memory lane. I want to live in the now and focus on the future.

I was going to write my goals for 2010 but I think I will save them for another day (I'm wrote this post 30 December. I need to get my stuff packed and ready to go for this party I'm attending. I will try to post a picture of the hike I'm going on on New Year's Day.)

The Writing's on the Wall

There comes a time when you just have to admit when someone just isn’t that into you. When a guy can’t spare 5 minutes of his time a day to get to know you, then he doesn’t want to know you. He’s not interested and he probably has someone else on the side, or your the person the side and that other person is his main dish.

Been there, done that. I don’t like being somebody’s side dish and I don’t want to be someone’s main dish while he’s sampling all those other sides.

Back to square one of being single. I think I’m going to stick with it. It’s easier and less disappointing. I deleted all of his contact information from my computer and my phone.

Anyways, I think I’m almost ready to lock my hair. I’m tired of wearing it in a ponytail. Not cute or sexy though I’ve been seeing folks on tv wearing sexy ponytails. I think it has more to do with their hair not frizzing up like crazy. It’s pretty hard to keep 16 inches of hair from frizzing when it’s humid or there’s an ocean nearby. Giant pom pom on a little nerf ball head.

I went to that ABC writing fellowship Q&A this past Monday. I think I’m going to try doing it but for next year. I finally know which show I want to spec for. It took me a while to figure it out because every show I thought about writing a spec script for got canceled and they want specs for shows currently in production. I want to spec script for Dollhouse. I totally get that show. Consensual servitude. I understand that. I did five years in the Army! Only I remember every minute of it. I so wish I could have some of those memories wiped.

I won’t be applying for the fellowship this year because I want to have at least two scripts ready and I only have a month to prepare, which isn’t enough time. Not if I want to write something great. Besides I have to focus on my business. If I can get some extra money coming in from that every month I will be okay.

As far as the job search, I haven’t been looking. But I think I know what I must do. I can’t leave California if I want to take a shot at screenwriting but I also don’t want to stay here.

Sushi Chef tried to please me

I just wanted to share a picture of the orange a Sushi Chef carved for me. I went out for Sushi Saturday night. I feel awful because I totally ment to wish everyone a Happy Mother’s Day.

I went to church with my mom for Mother’s Day and then I took her out for Korean BBQ. The food was delicious.

Random

I’ve had a very busy week. As you know, I went to Las Vegas the weekend before last. I learned a lot. I didn’t have much leisure fun but I did get to see the Blue Man Group, which was good.

I’ve been keeping busy networking and meeting new people. I went to one of my meetup groups yesterday and had a blast. I don’t seem to meet people my age in this particular group I meet with but at least they all have a sense of humor and I definitely learn from their life experiences, whether good or bad.

Anyway, I’m still trying to figure out this guy in my meetup group. I think I like him. One lady in my meetup group mentioned fixing her daughter up with him and I really, really, felt intense rage. I’m not usually territorial but I was that day.

I need to get out more and meet new people. I also need to get in the habit of updating my blog regularly. I have a few pictures I need to post. I don’t know why I don’t like blogging anymore. I guess with all that’s going on with me, I don’t like sitting in front of my computer. I’d rather read a book.

I think I’m going to get my own place next year. I’m tired of staying with my mom.