I went to the Blvd today to donate some money to Nathan Taylor's family to help with burial expenses.
A senseless killing. Unlike the Trayvon Martin killing, deaths of black men at the hands of other black men are the norm. Not that pice have arrested Taylor's killers but I'm willing to bet the perpetrators were black.
You won't see Jesse Jackson or Al Sharpton putting up a fuss over this. According to them, angry gun-toting white men are still mowing black folks down in record numbers.
I have to go out tonight and get at least 1 name and number so I will have someone to come to the plan Friday night. I need to be asking people everyday but lately I’ve been scared to. Note to self, never stop when you have the momentum. I had momentum two weeks ago but my bad habits crept back. What’s so bad about asking people a simple question? All I need is one answer and then I can move on to the next person. Five people a day. That’s not a lot. Thirty-five people a week. I can do this. I can do this. Freedom depends on it.
I have to remember Thomas Edison. 10,000 attempts at the light bulb before he got it right. If I don't make it before 9,999, then it doesn't work. I've got to get the number higher on my tally.
Hanging out on the Blvd again. I really like it here. Now that the weather is nice, people are out and about and absolutely friendly.
I have a feeling our summer is going to be less mild this year.
Well I'm going to enjoy my meal with my friend.
I was stood up again! Urgh!! The second time in two weeks. But it was an innocent mistake. The plumber came and he needed to get the issue fixed as the plumbing issue hadn't been fixed the first two times.
The only thing I can do us work on my rejection quota. I'm not sure why I have such a hard time asking a simply question. I haven't had anyone become irate or rude. I need to remember that when I'm out and about.
I got 4 rejections and couldn't bring myself to go for the fifth. I decided I would enjoy myself since the weather was so nice.
I hate casinos. They stink. I don't get the point in gambling. Why not just build a business and make some money instead of dropping money into a slot machine in hopes of winning some money?
Leadership weekend has started and I'm waiting for tonight's speaker to start speaking.
I'm still feeling the effects of making the drive to Vegas 4 days this week. It didn't seem like I would ever get here.
I understand now why I'm so bothered by the guy standing me up. It wasn't that he no showed, it was because of his attitude that if I wasn't looking for a relationship, then he didn't want anything to do with me at all. I hate the fact he pretended to be interested in the business opportunity just to get next to me. There was nothing in my approach that said I'm looking for a man.
It was kind of messed up, but I've done that before myself. Why bother getting to know someone you are attracted to and like them to only find out they probably won't ever like you back?
In my situation a few years ago, I found myself liking a guy who would never like me back. I couldn't stop thinking about him. Not healthy. I was a lot pissed that he implied he wouldn't mind sleeping with me though I wasn't Jessica Alba enough to date. Plus, I wanted to sever ties with a third person but I didn't want to tell the guy to choose between a friendship with her and a friendship with me. So, I took myself out of the picture, wished him all the best, and never spoke to him again.
Ending my friendship with him was messed up on my part (or was it?) but if he knew I didn't want to be friends with her, I didn't understand why he kept bringing her up. I had nothing good or bad to say about her (actually I had lots of bad to say about her but I wasn't going to say anything to him), so when he brought her up, I simply said "That's nice." and changed the subject.
I wasn't sure if he was trying to mend a friendship that wasn't meant to be between her and I but I wasn't having that and for reasons I don't feel like getting into today.
But I wish I could go back in time and do it all over again. I would simply say to him, "Look, I don't like her, she's too negative, and I don't want to ever talk to her again so don't bring her up." And then I would tell him to go to hell for thinking so little of me for implying I'm good enough to screw but not good enough for a relationship.
I guess in the end, that friendship wasn't meant to be. But I would have handled it differently. See?
