Day 91

I finished my paper around 4pm to day. I didn't think I would be able to make the word count but I did. I didn't get out the bed until almost 10.

I have a lot to do tomorrow. I have to do three loads of laundry, get some gas for my truck, buy some ingredients for some oatmeal cookies, and drive out to the poppy fields to try and take some pictures of the poppies.

I washed my hair today. My scalp was on fire last night. I almost couldn't go to sleep. For some reason, washing my hair didn't really help with the itchy scalp because my scalp still itches.

I still want to learn more about the patterns of Sisterlocks. I've discovered that the pattern instructions for the Nappylocs tool are the same as the Sisterlocks patterns. So, I will purchase the Nappylocs business in a box and learn the patterns. It will be cheaper than making an appointment with a Sisterlock consultant just to ask a few questions. Besides, consultants in California don't seem too interested in expanding their clientele.

I made the pork chops in a crockpot. They turned out good. I used a Pomegranate and chipotle sauce. The pork chops turned out really good.

Well, I'm off to about 12 hours of sleep.

Day 90

I'm getting so tired of writing these fricken benchmarking problem solution paper. There should be a law against having to write these types of paper two classes in a row.

I'm a little ticked off with myself as I slept away most of the weekend. I'm usually completely finished with my paper by now but I didn't really work on it at all yesterday and I didn't really start my research until this afternoon.

I attempting to get rest is proving difficult. Do I sleep or do I work on my paper? At the moment I'm still 1,000 short of the require minimum word count. Did I mention that I'm usually done with my paper by now?

I have no motivation for finishing this paper. I have no motivation for school at all if the classes are going to be structured like these last two classes. I hate working on teams and I'm tired of school period. I just want my free time back.

The only thing that can make this a worse situation is if I got called back into the military. Another extended break from school will completely put me over the edge as I have no desire for school as it is and I don't think I will go back to school. My main focus will be getting the heck out of this desert because I hate it with all the fibre of my being.

Day 89

I've been considering getting Sisterlocks for a few months. The only thing is there isn't much information out there to help me understand what exactly is going to be done with my hair. For example, what do they mean by pattern, what does the pattern look like, and what is bunching?

I've seen lots of pictures on the internet and I've read dozens of blogs on the subject but I still have questions but I don't want to make an appointment with a consultant just to get the information. To me, making an appointment with a consultant just to get some questions answered is too much of a commitment and I don't want to spend any money just to ask some questions.

One blogger (Tina) has been blogging about her frustrations with finding a way to take care of her hair without having to rely on going to a consultant. I too, don't understand the reason behind the secrecy of the Sisterlock technique. Most people will continue to go to a consultant just because they'd rather have someone else to their hair. I don't know about you, but I have a hard time flat ironing the back of my hair so I can imagine how difficult it would be for me to try tightening a couple of hundreds of locks in the back of my head!

I have this paper to write but I've only gotten about halfway done. It isn't due until Monday. I meant to do much of my research last night but I went straight to bed as soon as I got home and I didn't get up until noon today.

Day 88

I decided I should take a couple of days off work next week to see if the time off will help me recuperate and rid myself of this fatigue I'm feeling.

It doesn't seem to matter how much sleep I get, I still feel tired. Last night I went to bed at around 930/945ish and woke up this morning at 530 and I know I got some good sleep because of the position I was in when I woke up. It reminded me of how when I was a little girl and I would wake up with my head in the first floor of my barbie house. (The barbie house was right next to my bed. :smile: ) There is no way I could have possibly gotten myself in that position unless I was in a deepest of sleep.

But I still feel like I only got a couple of hours of sleep. I suspect I'm developing other symptoms of Valley Fever. I have a rash developing on my lower legs and these episodes of fatigue. If I don't feel any better by Monday, I'll be sure to go to the doctor and have it checked out.

I went to bed around 600pm today and woke up around 930pm. I still feel like I didn't get any sleep! I was going to work on my paper but I have Saturday, Sunday, and Monday for that.

I'm going to go back to sleep now.

Day 87

Okay, so I have another paper due this weekend. I'm really starting to get tired of writing papers all the time. I have less than a year left. I think I can do it.

I'm always hungry but nothing satisfies my hunger. I ate a ton of food last night but the food didn't satisfy me.

I wish I could sing. Or have hairless legs. They don't seem to relate do they? Either one would suffice.

I stayed up way past my bedtime watching Pushing Daisies. I so want an In N Out burger right now. Or some oatmeal craisin cookies.

I really don't have anything to write about, so instead of boring anyone, I'm going to go to bed.

Day 86

I went out to dinner last night to a Korean Restaurant. I had a blast. There was supposed to be about ten of us but only four of us made it out to eat. Everybody enjoyed the food. Even I enjoyed the food. I don't know if it is because it's been a while since I had some authentic Korean food, because the food there is far from authentic Korean, but I thought it was good, too. It was nice hanging out with people and having adult conversations. That's the one thing I missed out on with some of my friends. They started having children early and life for them became all about taking care of baby and complaining about how baby's daddy doesn't pay child support.

Work was awful. I got really annoyed because someone wanted to see a cubicle. I think all cubicles look the same, don't you? I, to this day, have yet to see a cubicle that was impressive simply because there's nothing to be impressive about a cubicle. Cubicles are cubicles.

There is this guy who is totally sexy. I mean totally. If only...

Day 85

I'm trying to keep a clear head over the online learning. With the last two classes, there seems to be a lot more conflict over a particular assignment involving benchmarking.

I don't know what to do. I think I have a good grasp of what benchmarking is; however, I don't think everyone in the class is understanding it which is why there is so much conflict when the time comes to do the benchmarking assignment. What's even more frustrating is I asked the facilitator to clarify the assignment but she ignored my question. She still hasn't addressed the question and she's fully aware (now) that I'm not the only person with this concern because after a hiss a claw moment in the forum, several of the students expressed the same concern. Will the instructor clarify the instructions for the assignment? I want to say 'No' because she hasn't answered the question thus far.

I noticed people have a tendency to avoid answering a question when they don't know how to answer it. I hate that. I would rather someone respond with "Gee, I don't know, but I can get you in touch with someone who does."

Well, that's it for now. I'm so sleepy. I'm going to go to bed.

Day 84

What a long day in terms of school! I had some rather interesting discussions in class today. I don't feel like going into too much detail.

I hate Mondays. They are always the worst days of the week. I think the Mondays I come into work after a three-day weekend are the worst.

I did a little more reflection on that movie, The Things We Lost in the Fire. I still don't get why they named the movie after only a few lines in the movie. And I'm still buggin over the little boy's hair. It was just too long and it made him look so pretty. Boys aren't suppose to be pretty!

What I can say I liked about the movie is the fact that this movie showed a normal family that struggled to get through the loss of a loved one. It didn't dwell on the fact that the wife was black and her husband was white and the druggie family friend was Latino.

Day 83

I stayed up entirely too late tonight. I was hoping to be in bed before 9:30 but my computer was acting all slow and stuff. I actually had to shut my computer down and reboot.

I thing I'm going to buy I Am Legend. There's something about the dog in the movie. That was one awesome dog.

I don't get that show Dirt on FX. Is it supposed to be a comedy or drama? So, far the only category it fits in is boring. I thought it was going to be good but it seemed like those one liners they kept showing to advertise the show, like "That was some crotchtography" and "We never called you fat" were the highlights of the show. :???:

I seem to have a little too much time lately but if I'm going to write a spec script, I'll need to watch television and read more scripts. That's the only way to get good at script writing.

I need to get a second job.

Day 82

I keep causing trouble with my learning teams. How many more classes do I have left? Seven? Eight? I must look at my student schedule to find out.

I'm watching The Things We Lost in the Fire starring Halle Berry. My sons (if I ever have any) will hate me. I have serious issues with little boys with long hair. They look too pretty.

I'm bored with the movie. I wish they would show the little boy again so I can think of ways to chop off his hair. That's all I can think about. Scissors to hair.

Now I'm confused by the movie. I'm not confused anymore. When you see a man beating his wife, you get in your car, drive a few blocks, and then you call the cops. I'm not into getting into love spats, at least not up close.

I wonder if this movie is based on a book?

Is 'I need to sleep' code for 'I need to f^ck'? I guess not. Apparently, it means rub my ear until I fall asleep.

My eye hurts. I think I need to spend some time looking at something other than a computer screen.

Good news! I shaved my legs. Now all I have to do is learn to like wearing shorts.