No matter how much I try improve myself, I find new things I need to work on.
Forgiveness is one of them.
Patience is another.
I understand the process of improvement is a recurring process, but I would like to see the results of the things I'm doing. See why I need patience?
I need to get some rest. Good night.
If this post has posted, it means I didn't get home in time to blog. Sorry for the inconvenience this may have caused you. I know you just love reading my blog on a Saturday night.
Now, get a life. You shouldn't be reading my blog on a Saturday night! You should be having fun! Like I am, which is why you're reading this. I wrote it yesterday because I'm out hanging out and having fun.
Do the same.
Have a good night.
I hate the process I have to go through after washing my hair. Nothing sends me into a hair funk like having to blow dry my hair and then flat ironing it. I just want to let my hair be.
I've been thinking a lot about Sisterlocks lately, mostly because I'm tired of my hair and can't figure out what to do with it. I think I need to make an appointment with a consultant to see if Sisterlocks are the way to go. I would love to do more living and less worrying about my hair.
I need to get some sleep. I have to get up early for Toastmasters and then I'll have a very long day. I'm planning on meeting some folks from one of my meetup groups and hanging out in LA. Gotta love how I have to travel so far for a social life but folks up here aren't trying to do anything fun.
I got the lamest fortune cookie from Panda Express today. I can't figure out what it means. What is a 'romantic mystery'? What is it? Is it a book or a person? What?
I don't take fortune cookies seriously, but when everyone in your life tries to blow out your light, the message on a fortune cookie can help keep the light burning.
But this one, with this fortune cookie I have no idea how to interpret what it's saying.
What do you think this fortune cookie means?
Anyways, I keep hearing people tell me about how now is the time to buy a house (in California). Says who? I want to know who is saying this because I don't think now is the time to buy a house, especially with the banks trying to sell houses for more than what they are worth. Plus, every person I know who is part of the baby boomer generation plans on leaving California when they retire. What happens with real estate when there are more houses for sale than there are buyers? The price of real estate goes down.
Something to think about.
I seem to be unable to remember a lot of things. For example, I had a really great post in mind for tonight but now I can't remember. I know it was really good too. Geez. If only I could remember.
I'll probably think about it again when I don't have pen and paper or any way to document what's in my head.
I need to get some rest before I fall asleep at my desk.
I'm an avid reader. There's nothing better than reading a good book. For the past year, I've been reading books on business, relationships, and finance. My reading interests have everything to do with my business. I'm new to business, I enjoyed learning finance in school, and I happen to not be so good at relationships. :sad: I tend to let my relationships fall to the way side. I get so goal focused I forget about my relationships.
I'm working on it. My goal this year is to spend quality time on my most valuable relationships. I don't have a significant other so I don't have to spend time on that.
This week, I'm reading Am I Making Myself Clear? by Terry Felber. A must read for me as I don't think I'm always clear when I communicate verbally. Or physically. I'll let you know what I think.
The other book I'm reading is the Holy Bible, Numbers and Mark. I'm not a fan of Old Testament books. Too bloody for me. I barely got through Leviticus without almost becoming a vegetarian and I love eating tasty animals. I'm loving the New Testament. I just wish there was more. My goal is to get through the Bible in a year. I started reading in September and I haven't fallen behind. :happy:
Someone I was friends with in high school contacted me. She's married now, which is why I didn't recognize her name at all. I love hearing about people getting married because for a split second, I can see myself married.
And then I'm snapped back into reality. Getting married isn't top priority on my To-Do list. Even if the right guy came along, and it hasn't happened so far, I wouldn't make time. Then there's the fact that the guy I would be interested in, wouldn't feel the same for me (and this has happened too many times to count).
So, my options are to settle, which I would never do, or wait. For a long, long time.
So, I keep myself unbelievably busy to pass the time.
I don't feel like blogging. Sometimes blogging everyday sucks. I need to get done with my expenditures list.
I took my mom out to dinner last night and we got to talking about our businesses. I just want to get to the point as I don't feel like blogging all night long, but my mom said she likes having unprofitable businesses for the tax write offs.
WTF?
I don't want to keep my business small or unprofitable. I want the opposite. I want my business to grow so I can leave my job. That is my goal. Replace the income from my job with the income from my business. I don't think my mom understands the difference between how much an employee pays in taxes versus a business.
My goal is to purchase my first home under my business name. I actually want to purchase all my assets under my business name. I want to be poor as dirt on paper so I can't be sued.
I just spent the last five hours printing invoices and receipts for my business so I can type my expenses into my expenditures file. I hope this makes it easier to do my taxes. I definitely need to get caught up for 2010. I think I still have to print out my phone bills.
Yep, I'm bad. I completely planned on getting my paperwork, receipts, and travel logs together so I can get my taxes done. But instead, I'm watching tv on the Internet.
I actually don't want to watch tv. I sat and listened to someone at work talk about all the tv watching that occurs after returning home from work. I don't want that to be me.
Blogging doesn't help me with that but blogging is a cheaper alternative to a psychologist.
Crazy, Shavonne.
I realized today that I put too much of my personal life on the web. I don't care. I just wish I had something interesting to share.
I absolutely hate Private Practice. Addison Montgomery is a baby killer! She likes snuffing out the life of unborn children and when one is born alive she wants to kill it too.
No, I didn't get laid off or fired but someone hired up my chain of command did. It's really sad. I think this person had spent 20 years with the company. On top of that, there is a job posting which this person could have qualified for.
There's no such thing as a secure job.
My job isn't secure by any means, which is why I'm working on building other streams of income. I need to keep working it. I will never give up. I'll have more security with my business than with a job. You can't control your job, how much money you make (companies would pay you less if they could) or how high up the corporate ladder you go. Some say you have control but you don't. For example, it seems the first people to go are those in management positions.
I need to stop thinking about this. I'm getting depressed. I'm thankful I have a job and that's all I should be thinking about and building my business.
Ah, it looks like I will have the time to get my receipts together and done with for tax season. I can't wait to get this over with. It will be interesting to see just how much I will get back in taxes now that I have a home-based business. I will definitely have to blog about my refund.
I'm actually excited about it. Yippee. The way I see it, as long as I don't owe money, I'll be happy. I hate owing money and since I don't have the regular tax right offs others enjoy (i.e., dependents) I need something to help me get some right offs.
I'm thinking of maybe buying a house next year. Right now, the banks seem to be going through some things and not really compromising on the price of the homes. I don't think the houses in the AV are worth what the banks are asking for but I think it's because I don't see the AV as worth the cost. I actually still might not buy anything next year now that I think about it. I don't want to get something and not be able to sell it when it comes time to leave this state.
Why was spam invented? I'm not talking about the canned meat, I'm talking about email, blog, and any other kind of spam for electronic/Internet communication. I don't get it.
I've been getting an unusual amount of comment spam almost to the point where I want to turn off comments. I don't want to resort to that. However, something's got to give, right? Anyways.
I have to get ready to go to the movies. I have to do a couple loads of laundry. I didn't get anything done this weekend. Next weekend, I was invited to the firing ranges. I really want to go but I have not had time to get my paper work done for my taxes. I need at least a whole day for that. I might skip out on the mileage/travel log because that's just too much to have to enter into the computer. If had been entering it on a monthly basis I would be okay. As for 2010, I'm already behind. Urgh!!
Is today a holiday?
The potluck was fun. I enjoyed myself. I feel guilty because I didn't go outside to dance but I didn't feeling like listening to the music. Some of us preferred staying inside and watching the Winter Olympics.
I didn't meet anyone I could see myself being married to but I did meet some people who I think I could become good friends with. You can never have too many friends.
Happy Valentine's Day. I celebrated yesterday so today is really a normal day for me.
I'm in LA stuffing my face at a potluck for singles. I'm hoping one of these dishes is good ! I'll let you know if there are any great men here.
No, I'm not unemployed but it seems everyday I'm reminded my job is never secure. I can't really go into details, but another way of saying "You're fired!" is "Here's a severance package."
Fired, laid off, downsized, outsourced, early retirement...all terms for the process of becoming unemployed. :sad: Sometimes you're given a warning and sometimes it happens unexpectedly, but I'm sure the fear and the damage to your savings are the same.
Why do people continue to want to work for somebody else?
Why do people continue to believe Social Security and Medicare will provide for them in their old age?
I like it when people send me personal messages about my blog much more than comments. I always try to answer my emails when the time permits but my schedule sometimes prevents that.
Now about last night. I had a blast. It was great being around people who want to take control of their lives instead of having their lives control them. I spend 40+ hours a week with people who do nothing but complain about the economy, taxes, Obama, and everything else under the sun. These people have no one but themselves to blame about the state of their lives. It's one of the reasons why I started a business.
My business isn't traditional by any sense but it definitely isn't illegal. I would never be a part of something illegal. I didn't have to take out a loan to start my business. In fact, it cost approximately $160 bucks to get started. The success of my business is 100% dependent on me. Notice I didn't include failure? My business can't fail unless I quit. Quitting is something I'm not willing to do. I see much more potential to provide for myself in my old age with my business than I do with my 401K or Social Security. My 401K will be taxed as if I was still working and the value is dependent on factors I can't control, like the economy and the stock market. My business is one that grows during economic recessions. All direct selling or network marketing businesses grow during recessions.
I did a lot of research on Avon when I was in grad school and learned a lot about the network marketing industry. My business is not Avon. I just wanted to clear the air. Avon is a great company with great products, but Avon didn't have the characteristics of a network marketing business I wanted to get into. The characteristics that I was looking for are:
1. Must have low cost entry. (I'm not trying to borrow tens of thousands of dollars.)
2. Must appeal to both men and women. (Cosmetics are not appealing to manly men.)
3. Must have products I'm willing to use myself. (If I'm happy with the products, I'm more willing to recommend them to people I know.)
4. Must have an excellent training program and mentorship. (It helps to be mentored by someone who's built a successful business.)
5. Must be Internet based. (A commerce business not on the net is a business going out of business.)
6. Must have longevity and a proven track record. (How long a company has been around is as important is the products. I don't want to spend my time building a business only for it to go out of business.)
7. Must be able to earn residual income. (The Kroc family [McDonalds] earns residual income from the thousands of McDonalds restaurants.)
8. Can be built in my spare time.
I found a network marketing company with these characteristic plus a few more that I hadn't thought of like being DEBT-FREE and owning all operations of the business. I don't like the idea of a network marking business having shareholders. Shareholders are liabilities because a company must pay the shareholders for their stock options. In other words, stocks are a company's way of borrowing money and the network marketing business I'm in has no shareholders.
I'm totally exhausted. I haven't recovered from the last few days. I didn't get home until 3 am this morning. I didn't sleep in long either. I got up after 8 and frantically searched the house for my mail box keys because I was expecting an order.
Anyways. I just barely got home from church. I had to go through my order to ensure I have everything and get my clients order ready. I told him I would have it for him on Monday but Monday came and my order didn't. I'm going to go to bed now. I need to get up early so I can get to work on time. I will blog more about this in tomorrow.
I'm in Anaheim learning how to grow my business. I need a energy I get from being around people who want to take control of their lives rather than have their lives control them. Sorry about yesterday's post. Hopefully, I will have something good to share.
I wish it was okay to vent about things that are going with me during the day but it wouldn't be kosher. So, I will just have to keep it to myself.
Anways, I dislike sour pusses and I'm trying to keep my blog on the positive note because nobody wants to read a negative. I don't want to write a negative blog. I want my blog to be all sunshine and daisies and smiley faces. But after spending all day at that place where I earn my wages, I need to vent. I just want to tell people to shut up or get some help because I can't be around the sour pusses. I don't want to hear the Woe-is-me nonsense when all that person has to do is make a decision to change and do it. It's not hard when people are willing to help you. You just have to say YES!
I have a lot to do this week. I hope I will be able to post to my blog. If not, I will at least post a lovely graphic.
Anyways, Fox does it again. Dollhouse got canceled and I'm not happy about it. I swore after Sarah Connor Chronicles that I would never watch Fox again. Now I have a reason to stick to that.
I hate shopping. I think I'm one of the few women to hate shopping. The more clothing a store has on it racks the more frustrated I get and leave. I like stores with the clothing organized by color, size, and style. The more organized the store is, the more I'm likely to stay and shop.
I'm not one for discount shopping as I find discount stores are often disorganized. I almost went into Ross today but remembered how much I dislike the organization of the store. I only shop there when I'm in the best of moods.
I need a shirt to wear for the Valentine's party I'm going to next weekend. I couldn't find anything red. You'd think they'd have plenty of red but apparently the color's gone out of style or something. Ha!
So I will wear a shirt I already have but haven't worn yet. It will be perfect. It's a bright green color and I'm sure I'll be the only person wearing bright green. :smile:
I wonder if He will show up? Don't ask who He is as I don't want to mention his name. It would be nice to see him.
I think the dog's gone senile or something. He keeps messing in the house. The poor dog. Lost his brother four years ago and his girlfriend 3 months ago. He must be lonely.
I think this will be his last year with us. He's ten years old and for a chow, is pretty dang old.
I don't feel like blogging much today. The rain has given me the blues. Until tomorrow.
I was curious about love after posing the question to someone I work with the other day. Is love a feeling or a choice?
The person I work with is around my age and hasn't been married long. His answer to the question was love is a feeling and he explained that he never felt more love and hate for a person like he has for his wife. This is his first marriage and again he is young. So, I decided it would be best to ask someone who's older and has been married a lot longer.
Today, I asked a man who's been married for 20 years to the same woman. I also asked a man who's been married twice; the first marriage lasted 10 years and the second marriage lasted 5. They both said when you first marry, love is about the feelings but after they got used to their wives, love was about the choice.
I've read the Five Love Languages by Gary Chapman, and he says eventually the 'in love' will fade and people are faced with a choice: do they stay together or go their separate ways. With the high divorce rate, it is clear people choose to separate.
What are your thoughts on love? Is love a feeling or a choice?
It was a productive day in a that I have been tasked with two projects. I'm actually looking forward to what I find and can get accomplished.
I'm also looking forward to the Valentine's Day potluck next weekend. There will be 80 single people attending, which means I should be able to find one single male who could possibly be a good match for me. I'm trying to stay positive about this as I often get discouraged at the possibility of marriage. I want to marry but I want to marry but it seems like the men attracted to me aren't worth my time.
So I focus my energies on other things and try to keep busy to pass the time. Always looking for a way to avoid going home after work. After two years of not having much of a life during my deployment and grad school, I wanted to get out there and live more.
For the next couple of weeks, I have to plan my trips and also work on my tax documents. I am 10 months behind on the expenditures and travel logs and I'm even behind on this year's documents and I want to catch up and schedule an appointment to do my taxes.
I've been told I don't have a social conscience because I don't believe in socialism. The people who have told me I lack a social conscience are people who weren't born in America. I'll let the Europeans have socialism. Let those living here in America who want socialism move to Europe.
I don't believe in taking care of people who can but are unwilling to take care of themselves.
Now, I can see why Europe has become the land of opportunity - for droves of Muslims looking for free speech and opportunity for a better life. Remember the Mohammad cartoons in Denmark? What about how Paris suburbs almost went up in flames? Wonderful examples of free speech and social welfare at its best. Give me some of that! :roll:
I heard an interesting quote in church the other day.
Do you really think giving money to people is going to do them a bit of good? You can give people money until you're broke, but after all is said and done, not only will they still need money, but you'll be broke, too. The problem with socialists is, many of them don't believe in God and a lot of them either can't do simple math or are in complete denial of where money comes from to see that social programs bankrupt governments!
Perhaps, the quote would make more sense to socialist if it read like:
Doesn't it make more sense to teach people how to do for themselves? Make their own money? I blog a little bit about a quote (actually a Chinese proverb). I love Chinese proverbs as much as I love the Bible's book of Proverbs.
So, I don't think I lack a social conscience, it's just my ideas on how to help people who need, want, have the ability, and actually desire an improvement in their lives will be better off with some mentorship and funds from charitable donations instead of government run programs funded by forced deductions.
Chinese proverb.—The International Thesaurus of Quotations, ed. Rhoda Thomas Tripp, p. 76, no. 3 (1970).
Once you get out of the habit of doing something, it's hard to get back into it. I've been having a hard time getting back into going out every night. I just don't feel like doing it. But I need to because my future depends on it. The more people I meet the better.
I could be out right now. The night is still young.
I must read my read my Bible though. I hate going to bed early. I can sleep when I'm dead!
I have to plan out my trips and guestimate how much time I'm going to need for the traveling I plan on doing this year. So many places to go and so many people to see but I'm hoping to be able to write off every last one of my trips.
I've been eating a lot of Panda Express lately. Thought it would be nice to post the latest fortune cookie. Particularly like this one.
