The Writing's on the Wall

There comes a time when you just have to admit when someone just isn’t that into you. When a guy can’t spare 5 minutes of his time a day to get to know you, then he doesn’t want to know you. He’s not interested and he probably has someone else on the side, or your the person the side and that other person is his main dish.

Been there, done that. I don’t like being somebody’s side dish and I don’t want to be someone’s main dish while he’s sampling all those other sides.

Back to square one of being single. I think I’m going to stick with it. It’s easier and less disappointing. I deleted all of his contact information from my computer and my phone.

Anyways, I think I’m almost ready to lock my hair. I’m tired of wearing it in a ponytail. Not cute or sexy though I’ve been seeing folks on tv wearing sexy ponytails. I think it has more to do with their hair not frizzing up like crazy. It’s pretty hard to keep 16 inches of hair from frizzing when it’s humid or there’s an ocean nearby. Giant pom pom on a little nerf ball head.

I went to that ABC writing fellowship Q&A this past Monday. I think I’m going to try doing it but for next year. I finally know which show I want to spec for. It took me a while to figure it out because every show I thought about writing a spec script for got canceled and they want specs for shows currently in production. I want to spec script for Dollhouse. I totally get that show. Consensual servitude. I understand that. I did five years in the Army! Only I remember every minute of it. I so wish I could have some of those memories wiped.

I won’t be applying for the fellowship this year because I want to have at least two scripts ready and I only have a month to prepare, which isn’t enough time. Not if I want to write something great. Besides I have to focus on my business. If I can get some extra money coming in from that every month I will be okay.

As far as the job search, I haven’t been looking. But I think I know what I must do. I can’t leave California if I want to take a shot at screenwriting but I also don’t want to stay here.

Sushi Chef tried to please me

I just wanted to share a picture of the orange a Sushi Chef carved for me. I went out for Sushi Saturday night. I feel awful because I totally ment to wish everyone a Happy Mother’s Day.

I went to church with my mom for Mother’s Day and then I took her out for Korean BBQ. The food was delicious.

Random

I’ve had a very busy week. As you know, I went to Las Vegas the weekend before last. I learned a lot. I didn’t have much leisure fun but I did get to see the Blue Man Group, which was good.

I’ve been keeping busy networking and meeting new people. I went to one of my meetup groups yesterday and had a blast. I don’t seem to meet people my age in this particular group I meet with but at least they all have a sense of humor and I definitely learn from their life experiences, whether good or bad.

Anyway, I’m still trying to figure out this guy in my meetup group. I think I like him. One lady in my meetup group mentioned fixing her daughter up with him and I really, really, felt intense rage. I’m not usually territorial but I was that day.

I need to get out more and meet new people. I also need to get in the habit of updating my blog regularly. I have a few pictures I need to post. I don’t know why I don’t like blogging anymore. I guess with all that’s going on with me, I don’t like sitting in front of my computer. I’d rather read a book.

I think I’m going to get my own place next year. I’m tired of staying with my mom.

Las Vegas

Tomorrow I’ll drive myself to Las Vegas to hear John C. Maxwell speak on the subject of Leadership. I’m not looking forward to the 4-hour drive but I think it will be worth it.

I invited a friend to join me but I guess she won’t be able to make it. She might still show up but I haven’t heard from her so I’m going to assume she won’t make it.

I’ve been getting my Internet marketing campaign with my business. Telling people I know hasn’t helped drive traffic to my e-commerce Web site.

I actually have plenty to blog about but at the moment, I’m beat. Will try to blog this weekend. Hopefully my hotel room in LV will have Internet. For some reason I don’t think so. Bummer.

Dreaming Red

I’ve been really busy learning all I can about about my business. There just doesn’t seem to be enough time in the day.

I’ve been really busy. I don’t seem to want to go into detail about it all though. I haven’t been much for blogging. I feel guilty about it. I did so well blogging everyday last year despite going to school. Why haven’t I been able to keep up with my blogging this year?

Anyway. I had a fun Saturday night. I met up with my meetup group and had a blast. I think I mentioned a certain red head. Or maybe I twittered about it instead. Anyway, he was very attractive. Very sweet too, though I couldn’t get him to get up and sing karaoke.

Which brings me to karaoke. I learned two lessons: 1. don’t sing an embarrassing song in hopes of getting others to sing and 2. don’t sing “I touch myself” by the Divinyls. I hope I spelled the name of the group right. Anyway, I don’t think I’ll be singing that song again. The end of the song is 20 repetitions of “I touch myself” and a couple of “Yes, I really do.”

I’ve been so lazy this past month. I haven’t been contributing to my blog or reading. I really need to get organized but I don’t like using my weekend to do it. I don’t even feel like finishing this post.

The Law of Attraction

It would seem like the law of attraction is working again. Man slut was at work today and we spoke and nodded to each other twice. Not sure what this means but I’m not comfortable with it.

I can’t stop thinking about him. And I think other people have picked up on the vibe. For example, I mentioned how folks weren’t signing out on the board at the end of the day and the person I said this to said so. Then this person signed out man slut. Man slut wasn’t the only person that hadn’t signed out.

The law of attraction. When you think about something, the universe will send it to you. I can’t stop thinking about man slut. It’s kind of like Twilight, when Edward stalks Bella. I’m Edward and man slut is Bella. This reminds me of that episode of Buffy, “I Only Have Eyes for You.” Buffy and Angel were possed by two lovers. Buffy was the teen boy and Angel was possed by the boy’s teacher. I’m not possessed though, in case you haven’t figured it out. I just can’t stop thinking about him.

I need to think about Red Hot. I met Red Hot briefly when I went out for Sushi this past weekend.

I need to think about winning some money when I go to Las Vegas.

I just checked one of my meetup groups. It seems Red Hot will be there. Ah, sooky sooky. Definitely wear some makeup. Let the universe send him my way.

The Law of Attraction

I watched the dvd The Secret the other day and now I’m listening to the The Law of Attraction.

I can’t wait until I get the book (The Secret) in the mail. I grasp things much better when I read it.

So far, The Law of Attraction says that, like attracts like. If I think negative thoughts, negative things will happen to me. For example, I often wonder why only man sluts are attracted to me. Well, according to The Law of Attraction, man sluts are attracted to me because I keep thinking about them. If I think about man sluts all the time, I will attract man sluts all the time.

Now I need to change my way of thinking. I need to think about men like Jim Bob Duggar instead of man sluts. I also need to think about how successful my business is. Yes, my business is successful. Nothing but positive thoughts from here on out.

I also understand why I haven’t found a new job yet. I don’t know where I want to live or what I want to do, so the universe is confused on what it is I want. Once I figure out what I want to do and where I want to go, the job offers will follow. I need to write my goals down, visualize them and then the process(es) I need to take to achieve my goals will be clearer.

I think I’m going to buy The Secret audiobook. Everything The Law of Attraction states rings true. Like attracts like. Positive thoughts for positive outcomes.

I have an iPhone

I bought my iPhone today. I tried to wait until June but I just couldn’t. I like gadgets and it’s been several months since I bought anything new.

I texted my cousin V and told her about my phone. She couldn’t believe I bought one because I don’t like phones. However, I’ve discovered Twitter and now I get it. Short and sweet and just my kind of communication. I’ve been twittering all day. LOL.

Anyway I added a business line to my phone. So now I have three phone numbers I can be reached at. I have a bunch of books I need to purchase in the next few months, all business related. I’ve got a bunch of free books coming my way. I can’t wait to get them. I went by a local cafe and inquired about renting the conference room for a couple hours a month. $75 for the first hour and $25 for every hour after. It sure beats renting a conference room for $200+.

Anyways. I’m strapped for cash right now. My tax refund isn’t as big as I thought it was going to be. Dang. I also have to fix this rental property.

As far as my schedule goes, it completely slipped my mind that I have an appointment to get my bush lasered which conflicts with my Toastmasters. Dang, dang, dang.

I watched The Secret this weekend. It was wonderful. I liked it so much I bought the book. Everything The Secret says can been seen in the philosophies of very successful people. I’m going to put The Secret to the test.

First things first. Think only positive thoughts.

I run a successful business.
I receive checks in the mail.
I am a great leader.
I own a beautiful home.
I have a wonderful husband and three beautiful children.
I drive a Ford Fusion hybrid.
I make $250,000 a year.
I have great sex.
I am in good health.
I write oscar-winning screenplays.

Those are just my top 10. I’m not sure if I need to have great sex. Hmmm. What do you think? Have you read The Secret?

I cannot describe my confusion over the TSCC. It seems like Fox is preparing to take TSCC off the air and the show is getting really, really good. The show is my favorite show on tv right now.

I just have this feeling this will be the last season of TSCC despite next weeks episode only being a season finale instead of a series finale. I wish they hadn’t killed of the eye candy. His death wasn’t all that memorable. Just a bullet to the head. Couldn’t the writers have come up with a more dignified or dramatic way for John Connor’s uncle to die? A bullet to the head. What a shame.

I went to a Buffy meetup group last night. It was interesting. I never thought I would be surrounded by people who loved Buffy that much. I’m going to have fun hanging out with them. Maybe I’ll even get an opportunity to meet Joss Whedon at one of the Buffy events.

That’s all I have to say about tv. Dollhouse is on and I want to try to watch it. I fell asleep watching last week’s episode.

My week

I’ve been too busy to update my blog. Starting a home-based business is not easy. I’m still trying to think of ways to drive traffic to my e-commerce website.

I started a blog for by e-commerce site. All I need to do now is generate a couple articles on the products every week. So, if I don’t update this blog regularly, you’ll know why.

I’ve decided on getting myself an iPhone. I won’t be getting the phone until the new ones come out in June, so I will have to make due with my Motorola Razr. I don’t really like my Razr but since my other cell phone has been falling to pieces, I’m glad I bought my $20 Razr almost two years ago.

Anyway, it was hard to resist not buying the iPhone when I went to AT&T to pay my bill. I made my decision to buy the phone in June when I showed up for my meetup group and was the only person there. The meetup had been cancelled but I didn’t know that because I didn’t have access to the Internet to check my email.

I’ve been trying out more of the products I sell through my business and I’m very pleased to say that the chips and snack bars are really good.

I’ve got some really good news to announce. I gave my first speech with Toastmasters 4 Writers and I won for best speech! I’m so proud of myself. I can’t wait to give more speeches.

I’ve been reading everything I can on investing and building a business. My two favorite authors are Robert Kiyosaki and Donald Trump. Who better to learn from a billionaire and a millionaire.

Diplomas and other stuff

I’ve received my diplomas in the mail! Yippee!!!! It took long enough.

I had a bad day yesterday when I got home from work. The products I had ordered from my business were sitting right smack dab in front of my front door for the whole world to see. So, I called my supplier and inquired about who does the deliveries for the company (i.e., Fed Ex, UPS, USPS). The lady on the phone was helpful and left a note on my account for my suppliers telling which ever company delivering my packages to leave my boxes on the porch, in the corner to the right of my door. You’d think the delivery man would exercise some common sense and automatically put my boxes there but I guess not everyone is born with common sense.

Then I got my business cards. I opened the box and I did not like what my eyes were seeing. I have a sage-colored border on my business card to match my Web site and the border only extended to the edge of the card on three sides instead of four. So I had to call the company and they gave me a store credit. I will use the credit to order some more cards but I have to wonder if they will turn out right. Had that company had some sort of quality control, my cards would have turned out right the first time.

Anyways. I have to start writing my speech for Toastmasters. I have no idea what I’m going to say. I started scribbling some ideas down today but I’m not sure they will make it to the final product.

I also came up with a script idea for a short film. I started outlining it. I know I said I would hold off on screenwriting but it’s really calling me.

I still haven’t gotten my taxes done. For some reason, I haven’t bothered to get all of my documents together. I need to make an appointment for next weekend at H&R Block. I hope I get a nice tax return this year.

Undefined relationships

I went to a Regional Rally for my business this weekend and listened to a great couple speak about their rise through the company and how they became financially free from 9 to 5 jobs. It was very motivating, so motivating that I’ve decided to focus on my business rather than pursue a career in screenwriting. The way I look at it, if I can build my business up for the next two years to where I can leave my job, then I’ll have more time to devote to screenwriting.

Let me get back to the Regional Rally. The couple (Tracey and Kimberly Eaton) were awesome. Tracey said a lot of things that got me thinking about why I have chosen celibacy. Men have gone soft and not too many of them are leaders anymore. I look at the guys around me and I see men who are into playing mind games, too busy chasing the pootytang, and don’t have much interest in general with having families and taking on the roles of leaders and providers for their families. The guys who are interested in being the leaders and providers for their families are already taken.

Which brings me to undefined relationships. The relationship is not a relationship when the girl calls a guy her boyfriend and the guy calls the girl his sister or doesn’t acknowledge her existence. The girl obviously wants more from the “relationship” than the guy is willing to give because if they wanted the same thing, he and she would be boyfriend/girlfriend and not boyfriend/sister-doesn’t exist. Get it?

I think I’m going to slowly drop out of one of my meetup groups. I don’t think there will be many new meetups with this group to begin with now that there’s an undefined relationship in the works. I don’t want to be privy to the highs and lows of toxic relationships now that I’ve managed to purposefully lose contact with high school friends who were/are in toxic relationships. I need to keep things positive if I want to build my business.

Purple veggies

I remember when I was in college around this time of the year and the devastation I felt when I learned corned beef and cabbage wasn’t Soul Food.

I kind of felt that same way today when I learned about purple carrots. You see, I love carrots and I’ve always known them to be orange. But apparently I and everyone else in the western world have been duped. Carrots first came in white, yellow, red, and purple. The orange carrots were developed by the Dutch.

I had no idea purple carrots existed until today when a coworker mentioned having purple carrots in Pakistan.

I also didn’t know cauliflower came in lime green, yellow, orange and purple! I almost gave birth to a whale when I saw cauliflower in such beautiful colors. So far, the only difference I read about the varieties is the color. They all pretty much taste the same, but the colors do have different health benefits. Ha! I can’t wait to try some of these new veggies-if I can find them. I will probably have to grow my own veggies.

Anyway, I just wanted to post something about my favorite vegetables. I need to go to bed. I have a long day tomorrow.

Taxes

I still haven’t gotten my taxes done other than not having all my paperwork together. I hoping to get a major tax return. I paid for school (with cash), purchased a duplex, and maxed out my Roth IRA. Oh boy, I would like to get a nice fat refund this year like I did last year-only fatter.

I have my Toastmasters meeting this Saturday as well as training for my business. I’m still waiting on my business cards. I paid extra to get them in two days but apparently I’m not going to be getting them any time soon. I’m going to have to call to find out the deal on my business cards.

I finally received my order I placed 7 days ago. Now I can give a couple of my customers their orders. I have a goal to purchase a new MacBook Pro next year. I’m hoping I’ll be bringing in enough money from my business to do that next year.

I’m thinking of starting a blog for my business. I plan to purchase another Graph Paper Press template for this blog. Man, I’ll be doing a lot of writing this year besides the screenwriting I plan to do.

I have to keep busy. I have goals I plan to meet.

Random

It seams I completely forgot what I was going to write about.

I logged into the IndieSOS forum tonight to read a post about blogging. So far, I’m the only person besides the administrator(s) to post a blog at the forums. It’s a little disheartening since the organization provides the blogging feature to members for free. I’m totally taking advantage of it because I want to get into screenwriting and it seems natural to write.

Anyway. I’ve been thinking a lot about the script(s) I’m going to be writing next month. I think I’m going to start writing the spec script now and then work on the feature script in April. I verify with IndieSOS at the end of this month so I’m hoping to meet some actors who will inspire me to write a short feature film. I’ve read a few directors, like Spike Lee, often write for specific actors in mind.

I went to Yang Chow’s on Sunday with my mom and two of my cousins. My cousin R suggested I join a theatre group. Ha! Not into acting though the pay is good when you can get the work. I’m too private of a person (coming from someone posting intimate thoughts on a public blog).

I watched an interesting commercial last night. It was Mary Kay. It seems the company is looking to attract more sales reps. Now, I don’t mean to write about MLM, but now is the time to get into it. Recessions and high unemployment are the key elements for increased profits with MLM companies.

I just felt like writing about MLM.

As far as shows I really like on TV. I’m really liking Lost and Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles. I’m still not sure about Dollhouse. I wasn’t impressed with the series premier but the show is starting to grow on me. I hope Terminator and Dollhouse will be on next year. For some reason, I have this feeling the shows will be cancelled. Who watches tv on a Friday night?

Spec scripts

I’ve been trying to figure out what ABC show I should spec for. So far, two of the shows I was considering (Eli Stone and Pushing Daisies) have been cancelled. Now, I only have a few shows to choose from and there’s no telling if the shows will be on next year.

So now that Eli Stone and Pushing Daisies are out of the run, I have Samantha Who? Ugly Betty, Grey’s Anatomy, Private Practice, and Lost to write a script for. My choices aren’t exactly my first pick. I really don’t want to write for any of these shows. I considered Samantha Who? but thought it would be too easy. I want a challenge but I have to consider my strengths and I think a comedy is right up my alley.

I don’t know what to do. Part of me says, screw it, and write my own series. That’s what I should do. However, the writing fellowship says to write a script for a show that is still on the air. Again, the shows that are on today, might not be on next season.

Anyway, I have a couple of weeks before Script Frenzy starts. I’ve been wanting to participate with Script Frenzy for a while now.

I just saw a commercial for the new show, Castle. I hope it’s good. It’s a potential show to write for. Hopefully it will last beyond one season.

A commenter

I had a rather interesting experience the other night. I should say, a commenter showed me a technique that could drive people to my Web site and generate more business.

I started to wonder how the commenter went about finding my blog. So, I went to look at my blog stats and I noticed someone had found my blog by searching for ‘business cards.’ I had written about my frustrations with designing my business cards using Photoshop. Not such a user friendly program.

Anyways, the commenter left an url to the Printclick Blog. I’m actually pretty glad I checked out the Web site. Printclick offers a printing service. The blog has great advice for designing business cards but the store does not open until this summer.

I’ll be sure to check out Printclick’s services.

I don’t think I’ll be using this too often as I don’t have time to read many blogs. I just thought it was interesting.

Cellphones

I hate spending money on technology I don’t favor, like phones. I hate phones but I find them to be a necessity because pay phones are hard to come by in Southern California. I actually don’t think pay phones exist anymore. I haven’t seen one in ages.

My Motorola phone has served me well these last four years. I really hate to part with it because I get attached to things after using them for lengthy periods but my phone no longer satisfies my needs. I need something to keep up with my contacts, my calendar, and has GPS. I don’t necessarily need music or movies, but I do need to be able to listen to audio files.

Here’s the catch, I know I won’t have any compatibility issues with my iMac if I get the iPhone because Apple designs all gizmos and gadgets to work together. If I get the BlackBerry, I may run into some compatibility issues with my iMac. I tend to dislike things that aren’t compatible with my computer.

I’m also trying to figure out how much my monthly bill would be. I really want to spend $100/month on a phone bill for a phone I rarely use at the moment, but I do recognize my phone use will change now that I’m trying to build a business. I don’t plan on cold calling anyone, but I will need to keep in touch with people I meet (more for social purposes than business).

I think I’m going to start with the Motorola Razr I’ve had for the last two years. I purchased it for $20 with my current phone plan but never used it because I’m still using my old phone. I just have to go to AT&T to see if there’s anything I need to do to turn it on.

My cousin is absolutely amazed at how phone illiterate I am considering how much I love gadgets. Well, I attribute my computer literacy to the fact that use my computer for all my communication needs. It’s my phone, my tv, and really, who needs a phone when you can video chat, for FREE!

Designing business cards

I must be slow or something because I’m trying to figure out Photoshop CS2 and I’m not having any luck. I tell you, Comic Life Magiq is a much easier program to use than Photoshop, and it’s only $49.99, which makes it a bargain. I just don’t what I’m doing with Photoshop. It’s not user friendly. There’s no wonder I’ve had the software for years and haven’t bothered to use it. I don’t mean to sound like an advertisement, but I produce all my graphics for my blog with Comic Life in 20 minutes or less. That’s how user friendly the Comic Life is.

As for Photoshop, I’m glad I didn’t fork over the dough to upgrade to Photoshop CS4 as I would have spent a large sum of money (even with an education discount) for a program I’ll mostly likely never use.

I’m searching help in Photoshop because I want to add an Image to a stinking layer but apparently this is a complicated task and HELP has no idea what I’m talking about. I’m just frustrated because I’ve been at this for hours. HOURS!!!! And I can’t figure this out.

Anyways. It was just easier to order my business cards than it was to design it myself. Though the design isn’t much different from what I order. The only thing I wanted to add to my business card was the logo that appears on my website. **Bad news, I discovered a typo on the cards I ordered so I had to put in a new order. It's a good thing I can write this off on my taxes. I'd be ready to shoot myself. I can't believe I didn't see it the first time.**

I also purchased some domain names. I still haven’t heard on whether my offer had been accepted but I do know that it hasn’t been rejected. I just wish the person would reject the offer already if that’s what he’s going to do. I hate waiting. I hate rejection.

I’ve been reading a book my sponsor gave me a week ago. I’ve been meaning to finish it this weekend but I’ve been busy attending meetups and getting the training I need to successfully promote my business.

I joined a Toastmaster’s Club. I didn’t know what a Toastmaster’s Club was at first, but I’m happy I went because what I learn with this group, I can use to promote my business. So, what’s a Toastmaster’s Club? Well, it helps you become better at public speaking, which is something I’ll need to be able to do when the time comes to pitch a script or motivate the people I sponsor into my business.

Apple Store

I went to the Apple Store in the Glendale Galeria. I love that store. To commemorate the occasion, I took a picture of myself. I'm thinking of getting a new laptop. I need something to celebrate my new business. Plus, I can write it off as a business expense.

UPDATE: This is the worst picture.

My business

Okay, I’m officially ready to write more about the business I just started a few days ago. I’m calling it the name you see to the right (for now).

I still haven’t heard back on that domain name I would like to buy. I guess no answer is a good thing as my offer could have been rejected. I sent an email to the owner and didn’t receive a response. If my bid is too low, you’d think that person would email me to let me know I should go higher.

I so hate shopping for domain names. I think I’m going to let a few domain names go. I have a couple that I don’t need. I just purchased them because I didn’t want anyone else to have them.

I went to a meetup tonight and only two of us showed. The organizer was kind of pissed. I think she’s going to make a stipulation that if anyone RSVP’s yes and don’t show up, they’ll get kicked out. That’s a smart rule because this is the second meetup scheduled and folks didn’t show up.

I have a meetup tomorrow at 9:30 am in Burbank. I wanted to cancel so I could spend the weekend learning about my business but since I RSVP’d I should go.

My Brunsli hairties

I got my Brunsli hair ties in the mail today. They’re so cute. I’m going to have to take some pictures of them in my hair. Of course, them being made as small as possible, they’re still too big for the the amount of hair I have on my head. My hair is long but very thin.

As for my business, I’m still getting it up and running. I’m hoping to do the official launch sometime this weekend, though I will still have more to do like order business cards. I would like to design my own business cards because I want them to be a work of art.

I also put in a bid for a domain name. I hope I get it, though I don’t think I will. The person who owns it seems to be holding out on a mega offer despite dnscoop.com saying the domain name is worth $0.

The good news is my domain name shavonne.org is worth $201! Ha. I wanted to buy shavonne.net but the company that owned it wanted over $1,000 for it. Dnscoop.com says the domain is worth $115. Trying to rip people off. I’m satisfied with my domain name for my blog and wouldn’t change a thing, now.

But I want a domain name for my business! Here’s to crossing my fingers that he will accept my offer.

On the writing front, I'm a couple of weeks behind. Gosh, I don't know how I will get everything done that I want to this year unless I lose some sleep. I have about five months left before I have to start getting my packet ready for the writing fellowship. I need 40-hour days to get everything done but I'm happy I'm out of school.

My cousins: DeVante and Damarick

I just had to post this news story about my two cousins DeVante and Damarick. I remember when they were little. They were so cute.

Mammies, jezebels, and sapphires

A friend wrote me about my post on Hollywood and black screenwriters, which got me thinking about Hollywood and how I really should have finished that statement I had made in response to reading about how one Hollywood executive didn’t “want to see a movie about a black woman saving a town full of white people.”

Hollywood executives don’t seem to have issues with black women saving white folks as long as the black women are playing mammies. Mammies! “Most portrayals of Mammy depict her as an "obese African American woman, of dark complexion, with extremely large breasts and buttocks . . . .asexual, maternal and deeply religious woman whose main task was caring for the master's children and running his household." - Marilyn Yarbrough with Crystal Bennett, 2000

There I said it. Queen Latifah played a mammy in the Secret Lives of Bees. Though her character lived in her own pink house, before she became she started raising bees for honey, she worked as a nanny. The movie also had a sapphire played by Alicia Keys. The only thing the movie was missing was a jezebel; however, the movie did manage to have not one, but two dimwitted black women. It’s like watching a modern day minstrel show but without white actors in blackface.

Now, from Ken Rance’s description of his screenplay, New in Town, the female character is upwardly mobile (white collar) and just happened to start dating a blue collar worker. Sounds more like a date movie than a movie about a woman trying to save a town. But that’s just me. Perhaps that executive just wanted an excuse to not make the movie with a black female lead.

As for the movie New in Town, I don’t plan on seeing the movie, but I probably wouldn’t have liked it even if it had been black casted. I have issues with movies where white collar black females are paired with blue collar men.

Too bad Ken Rance wasn't a screenwriter for tv. Screenwriters for tv have more influence when it comes to casting.

Networking

I already blogged about how I joined meetup.com to link up with people who have similar interests as myself. So far so good.

I’ve been contacted by a producer about screenplays though I don’t have any screenplays to show him, but knowing he’s interested in anything I will write is a start. I just need to write some scripts.

Found some folks to hang with on the weekends. My next two weekends are booked. Yay! It feels good to hang out with adults without a whole lot of responsibilities. It makes me feel younger.

Now, I’m going into my next venture. When I was in school, I did a little research on network marketing. Learned a couple of things, too. For example, Avon, Tupperware, Tastefully Simple and other network marketing companies experienced increased profits during recessions. The downside is most network marketing companies don’t last. As soon as the founders make enough money, the companies are sold off.

I’ve been introduced to a network marketing company with some real potential. The products are things I would use, like water! Who doesn’t need water? Pure water? The water is awesome, too. And there’s an e-commerce to help increase my earnings.

Anyway, I’ll be posting more information about it as I go through the process of learning more and starting my home business. I’ll be signing up on Monday. I feel really good about this.

For other issues, I’m gaining weight again. I’ve eating so much food, like tonight I went to have all-you-can-eat sushi. It was dang good, too. I’m still within my ideal weight range but I want to stop it before it gets out of control. If you could see a lot of the people I work with you’d understand why I’m paranoid about my weight.

Now, more about the sushi I consumed. I tried some things I never had before like Salmon Roe (it smells fishy) and Ono (white tuna-very good), and Eel (very good). I almost didn’t eat the Salmon Roe (eggs) because my mom, the drama queen, acted like Salmon Roe is the most disgusting thing you can put in your mouth. She doesn’t like the texture of the eggs. Well, I wouldn’t go that far with it-try cinnamon spaghetti-but I do have to say the fishy smell and salty taste is something that can keep me away from Salmon eggs. I’ll stick with my smelt eggs.

Well, I should be watching my movies I got through Netflix. I really like Netflix. I’ve gotten seven movies for $16 and I can still order more before the month is over. Talk about saving some money and gas, but I feel like I’m cheating on Movie Gallery. Whoever came up with Netflix is a genius.

Girls' night out

I went out last night with the AV girls night out meetup group. Only three of us showed. We met at El Toritos. I’m not into Mexican food because of my lactose intolerance but it turned out to be much better than expected. My mom had me thinking the food was gross. I didn’t like the beans that came with my meal-I prefer black beans-but everything else was good.

One of the girls (K) I met actually works where I work (she’s in the military), which is really weird because it’s not like there’s that many young women where I work. The other girl (J) is a first grade teacher.

Anyway, the teacher didn’t feel like seeing the movie. We were supposed to watch Bride Wars but Cinemark 16 didn’t have it, so K and I decided on Confessions of a Shopaholic. The movie turned out to be a good movie. Ha! I enjoyed the implicit meaning especially in light of what’s going on with the economy.

I can’t wait until the next girls' night out.

Locking hair: Sisterlocks vs Nappylocs

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In my search for more information about Sisterlocks, I've learned a lot about the process and what to ask when you meet with a consultant.

I think I probably feel like a lot of people when I voice my frustration about the secrecy behind the patterns. Just because I know how to do something doesn't mean I'm willing to do it myself. I know how to change the oil in my truck and custom frame a picture, but that doesn't mean I want to do it. I'm willing to pay someone else to do the things I don't want to spend my time doing but apparently if people know what it is the consultant is doing to their hair, people won't want to pay a consultant. Whatever. It's only bad business if the consultant doesn't know what she's doing and she's screwing somebody's hair up out of ignorance or laziness.

I want to know as much as I can about what's being done to my hair so that if someone tells me 3 inches of the end of my hair will be left out of the pattern, I'll know to tell that person to stop being lazy and lock the whole length.

I purchased the Nappylocs business in a box and started reading the booklet. The Nappylocs booklets describes several different patterns that can be used to lock one's hair: 8, 6, 5, 3, and 2-point patterns. Now the book doesn't say which pattern works best on which hair types but my guess is the looser the curl pattern, the tighter or more turns you want (8 or 6 pt).

Dollhouse

I don’t know what to think about Dollhouse. I found it rather confusing. I’m hoping the show will get better. It really isn’t like me to not like a Joss Whedon show. Buffy was great, Angel was great, and Firefly was the shiznitz.

Dollhouse is nothing like My Own Worst Enemy. At this point, I can say I liked My Own Worst Enemy better but hopefully things will change. I really, really want to like Dollhouse.

As for Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles, I loved Friday’s episode. I’m still furious about Fox moving the show to Fridays (who watches tv on Fridays?) but I will get over it now that I can watch the show over the Internet. What I liked about Friday’s episode is bringing some of the short-lived history between Sarah and Kyle Reese. I love romance of the twisted kind. He’s been dead for years but yet Sarah still carries a torch for a man she only spent a couple of days with. I’ve never experienced that.

I’m still trying to figure out the deal with the Red head. Is she good or is she bad? It seems she’s trying to change the way terminators operate. Does she want to live like humans? Does she want her kind to be more human?

Anyway, apparently men don’t care if a woman’s eggs are fresh or not. They just want to be able to make an omelette. So, there’s no need to be paranoid about the freshness of my eggs. And younger guys like older women.

Cancerous moles and not so fresh eggs

Every time I go to the doctor, I end up getting the sh!t scared out of me. Today, I had a dentist appointment and the lady who did my cleaning started asking me questions about the mole on the left side of my face. My mole doesn't bother me and I barely know what it looks like. I don't even really see it when I look in the mirror. Anyway, she started telling me about how at my age moles have a tendency to turn into cancer.

Great. I'm just loving my age.

For more bad news, my upper permanent retainer is cracked. So, I have to go back to the dentist next Monday to get it fixed. $209 is what the fix is going to cost me. A good smile can cost a pretty penny.

I was watching House Bunny, and Shelley tells the Zeta girls the eyes are the nipples of the face. What is the mouth then? The vagina? Is that why we paint our lips red? Holy smokes!!

That was as stupid movie, BTW.

I'm going to have to make my appointment to the gynecologist for my yearly pap. I'm hoping the doc will refrain from telling me how my eggs aren't fresh. I so don't want to hear that right now.

I've been searching meetup groups and there doesn't seem to be anything local and the most interesting groups are 50 miles away and meet during the week, which isn't convenient for me. To attend one of those groups would turn my 80-mile round trip commute to work into a 130-mile round trip to work, from work, to meetup group, to home. The AV totally sucks. I'd start my own group but I have a feeling most of the single folks venture to LA every weekend.

Facebook, Twitter, and other social networks

A few days ago I joined Twitter. I don’t get Twitter. It’s like a super dooper watered down version of Facebook (which I also don’t get). I have a blog. I think it’s the issue of having to login to Twitter to update my status. I think if Twitter really wanted to be something of use, then it would automatically update your Web whereabouts in the same way your gravatar follows you when you use your email address. I don’t think I’ll be using Twitter much. I’m not good at remembering passwords.

I came across this blog post about Facebook and how people will add hundreds of friends. I don’t get that either. I don’t add or accept friendships from people I don’t know, which means I have about 13 friends, or seven family members and six friends. I won’t even add an acquaitance. I actually have to know the person. I’m going to remove a couple of people from my friends circle because I find their language offensive and don’t want to associate myself with them. There’s something about having to use your real name on Facebook that makes me want to be very careful of who I associate myself with.

I despise Myspace. I have an account there, too but I think I’m going to let it close when the time comes. I had the opportunity to let it close a year ago but decided to keep it. I prefer the interface of Facebook.

I’m finally taking the time to listen to my John Denver Greatest hits. I totally get it. I totally love it.

I meant to write some movie reviews. I’ve watched seven movies in the last 10 days. I went out with a meetup.com group to eat at Super King Buffet and watch “He’s Just Not that Into You.” I liked the movie a lot. The guy who was with us said the movie was full of stereotypes about dating and marriage. I wouldn’t know anything about that. I haven’t been on a date in 2 years and I’ve never been married.

I liked Eagle Eye, hated The Secret Lives of Bees, and thought The Dark Knight was entirely too long.

Why are religious folks always depicted as loonies in movies? I rented The Mosquito Coast and didn’t know whether to think of the Missionary as the loony or Harrison Ford’s character as the bigger loony. I mean the preacher man didn’t go around burning churches. Both men wanted people to worship something that’s for sure. Harrison Ford’s character really seem to think ICE was the ingredient for civilization and built this giant ice-making machine in the middle of the Amazon rainforest.

I do think cold weather helped to create more advanced civilizations. Think about it, people living in warmer and tropical environments hadn’t changed their lifestyles for hundreds of centuries, while people living in colder climates established permanent communities, learned to grow crops, and domesticated animals.

Well, I’ve got some cleaning to do. Hopefully I’ll be finished by noon.

Chastity is HOT!

Well, my weekend will hopefully go by very slowly. I rented some movies to tide me over through the crummy weather. I’ve got some cleaning and organizing to do tomorrow. Plus, I have to do some shopping for the ingredients to my oatmeal craisin cookies.

I wish I had more to blog about but I’m at a loss for words. I need to do some creative writing this weekend in addition to job searching and resume writing. I really don’t want to spend another year in the desert.

There was something I wanted to blog a little bit about but I can’t remember. It had something to do with Grey’s Anatomy. I watched it last night but it wasn’t last night’s episode that I have stuck in my head. Ah, now I remember. It was last week’s episode and in particular the relationship brewing between Christina and Owen. Their relationship is the most interesting on tv I’ve seen in a long time. It’s just plain HOT! I don’t mean to mention this, but chastity is something missing in the relationships I’ve seen on tv. Everyone wants to hop in bed and screw their brains out like little bunnies. But Christina and Owen are taking it to a whole new level, one that I find totally respectable and erotic. If you get a chance check out Episode 13 at http://abc.go.com/.

I don’t think most people will get the relationship, but the ones who do will get it. Chastity is hot!

Happy Valentine’s Day!

Work

I haven’t done as much blogging as I had hoped once I finished with school. Granted, I finished school just this past Monday so it’s not like weeks have gone by and my blog’s gone cold.

I work with some aged folks. Actually, I work with a lot of aged folks and I keep hearing them make comments about the differences between the older generation and the newer one (mine). I personally think it’s really idiotic to stay with one employer for twenty years, especially when downsizing to “save” money is the standard procedure with most companies. Then when you look at the fact that the U.S.A. is a consumer country instead of a producer, then you really start to see how no one’s job is safe from outsourcing. If your job can be sent to India or China, or Africa to pay workers $0.30 an hour compared to $10 an hour in the U.S., then you really get nervous about the security of your job. Of course, I don’t fall into either one of those categories but a lot of Americans do.

Anyway back to the differences between the two generations. I can’t speak about the other people in my generation, but I really value job satisfaction and a sense of accomplishment. I get neither with my current employer. Advancement, I think was an option but I don’t think I would have been moved to another location so, that possibility was pretty much out the door. Plus, I hate the commute.

Anyway, I don’t get any pleasure at being at work all the time. And overtime? Who cares about the extra money. I want my time away from the office! I want to get lost. The older generation is the opposite. They want to work overtime and come in on the weekends and stay until 1 a.m. Crazy crackheads! They’ll never get that time back. Carpe diem!!

Speaking of Lost. It seems the Oceanic six have pretty pathetic lives away from the island. i think Sun and Kate are okay but Sun is occupied with avenging the “death” of her husband and Kate is afraid someone will discover the truth about Aaron’s maternity.

I guess I would be Team Locke because I’d have done everything I could to keep them from leaving the island.

They just don’t know how good they’ve got it.

Hollywood and black screenwriters

La Shawn Barber wrote about a black screenwriter and his movie “New in Town.” The movie stars Renee Zellweger and Harry Connick, Jr. What’s interesting about the movie is, the characters were originally written as “African-Americans.”

She asked a question at the end of her post:

“Is changing the race (sex, religion, nationality, etc.) of your main characters a small price to pay?”

I think changing the race of the main characters happens all the time in Hollywood. Renee Zellweger was casted in the role of a former slave girl in Cold Mountain. I suspect the reason is because no black actresses would take the role but I could be wrong.

I don’t recall many movies starring a black female lead in popular movie. I think it’s possible to have a black female lead carry a movie the same way Nicole Kidman.

I was watching a special feature on the Antwon Fisher dvd and Denzel Washington mentioned how roles for black men are more abundant than roles for black women. That’s true. Look at all the movies starring black men compared to black women.

If you read the article about the Ken Rance, the writer of New in Town, he mentioned how one executive didn’t “want to see a movie about a black women saving a town full of white people.”

I finally got to see the Secret Lives of Bees, and the movie made me think about what that executive said to Ken, and I thought “Don’t seem to have issues with black women saving white folks as long--” and I had to stop myself. I guess I just really didn’t like the movie. But the movie was work for four black actresses.

Shonda Rhimes is a screenwriter and creator of Grey’s Anatomy and Private Practice. Neither one of her shows features a black female lead. Meredith Grey could have easily been a black woman but then the show probably wouldn’t have become popular if she was. Miranda Bailey could have gone off to a private practice in Malibu, but instead, it was Addison Montgomery.

I don’t know, I guess you do have to change aspects of your characters if you want to make some money in Hollywood. Go with what’s generic and appeals to the masses.

Cornrows and Sisterlocks

I just wanted to blog about a hair emergency. I just read on Brunsli’s blog about the dangers of cornrolling Sisterlocks and lock loss. You can read about it here.

I’ve always been curious about cornrolling Sisterlocks. I know what the stress of wearing braids can do to one’s hairline, and I automatically assumed doing a whole lot of braiding (especially cornrolling) can’t be good for Sisterlocks.

I don’t think cornrows are good for loose, chemical-free hair with how tightly most folks braid hair. I hate getting my hair braided.

Anyway, I just wanted to blog a little bit about the issue and send you to Brunsli’s blog so you can ask her all kinds of questions.

Enough about hair.

I’ve seeing a lot of women around me struggle with working and motherhood. Why would you attempt to do both if you don’t have to? I guess that’s one reason why I won’t have children. I don’t want to be a working mom. I don’t want to juggle both. I know a lot of women who do who don’t have to and I shake my head. I actually want to smack them but shake my head instead because that’s the more kosher thing to do.

If I were married and my husband said i could stay home with my babies, I’d be so long gone from the job. But I won’t ever marry so i don’t have to worry about that scenario.

25 things about me

A cousin tagged me on Facebook so I’m posting 25 things about myself. I’m supposed to post the rules and tag a couple of folks but that’s just not my thing. If you want to try this then go ahead and try it.

1. I think I have a great buttom and wish I had eyes in the back of my head so I can get a better look at it in a mirror.
2. I’ve been celibate for almost 5 years (6 years if you count that time I wasn’t there mentally).
3. I don’t have a favorite color.
4. I’m terrified of becoming overweight and weigh myself almost everyday to ensure I stay within my ideal weight.
5. I can’t seem to maintain relationships because I value my “me time” too much.
6. I’m attracted to younger men. I think the Jonas brothers are hot!!! I would get excited when their Target commercial came on tv. ♫I don’t know why you say good buy. I say hello. Hello! Hello!♫
7. I started writing a book during January National Novel Writing Month 2006 about a women who was being stalked by a man who burglarized her home. I stopped because the story shifted from her to him and his character was too scary for me to continue. I got about about 7,000/50,000 words done.
8. I considered becoming Mormon or Jewish. I think Mormons are charming and Jews are mysterious.
9. I want to join a nudist colony. I hate wearing clothes.
10. I feel lonelier when I’m with a group of people than when I’m by myself.
11. I want to be a screenwriter.
12. I hate it when people imbed music on their blogs. I have my own playlist I like to listen to when I surf the blogosphere. I don’t want to listen to yours!
13. I love to read. I especially like to read How-to books.
14. I’m seriously considering Sisterlocks for my hair. I feel it’s time to style my hair in a way that’s complimentary to my natural hair texture. I’m tired of fighting what God has given me.
15. I find the word ‘nappy’ unbelievably offensive and don’t understand why black folks use the word to describe their hair. Please tell me it’s not the new term of endearment for black hair.
16. I recently joined Meetup.com. I’m hoping to meet some single people (without children) to hang out with in the Antelope Valley.
17. I have the soul of a 500-pound woman. I love food. I don’t really like cooking but I definitely like eating.
18. I was devastated when I found out corned beef and cabbage wasn’t soul food. Who knew it was an Irish dish! Do they eat it with corn bread, too?
19. I think sharing 25 things about myself is a little excessive. Why not just 5 or 10? Who ever came up with this social tag must have been really bored.
20. I don’t like shaving so I opted to get my underarms and my bush lasered off.
21. I had a really big crush on Matthew McConaughey. I think he has the most perfect arms, legs, and chest. Who cares if he has bad body odor! That’s what baths are for, danggit!
22. I think I’m the only person in my family who didn’t vote for Barack Obama. Sorry. I’m an independent and think McCain and Obama were two of the worst candidates for POTUS since Bush and Kerry! I don’t consider my vote wasted just because I used it on a third party candidate either. If Americans actually thought about the candidates they vote for we wouldn’t be in this mess to begin with. Damn @ssphants!
23. I’ve celebrated my 23rd birthday several times and I plan to keep doing it.
24. I’m tired of school and don’t plan to go back ever again.
25. I don’t like being tagged.

Feeling blue

I should be happy about finishing school in 4 days but I’m really bummed. One of my cousins had a stroke yesterday. She’s still in the hospital in a drug-induced coma. The doctors say if she makes it through the next 48 hours (now 24 hours) she should recover, though not fully. She’s paralyzed on the right side of her body.

My cousin is still really young. She’s only 10 years older than I am but smoking and being overweight and eating unhealthy takes a toll on one’s body. She also has bad kidneys and has been on dialysis for the past two years.

I hope she recovers. I know we don’t live forever, but we all should die of old age in a warm bed after having a good day. You know?

Rainy days make me so sad. I was trying not to spread the gloom but my blog is my one place to let it out. Free therapy, though not free because I paid for the domain name, Web hosting, and blog template.

I just received a phone call from a Spanish-speaking telemarketer. Very interesting. I just want to go to bed sleep off today.

My natural hair texture

I’m on a roll today. I got up really early to finish up my part of the team assignment this week. It seems I’m a much better writer when I do it early in the morning. My mind is clearer. I will probably get up at 4 am every morning to get some writing done. I still plan to apply for that writing fellowship despite the reports on the news about layoffs and such. I’ve got to try. I’ll try every year if I have to. I have a bunch of books I need to read and I plan challenge myself with this year’s Script Frenzy in April. If I want to be a writer, I must write!

Speaking of writing, I wrote down the details I had of a dream that would be perfect for a spec script for Pushing Daisies. It would have only explained the beginning of the show (I still have to read a couple of Pushing Daisies scripts to get an idea of the flow) and develop the story better but I think I will try to write a script for that show.

I still haven’t found any scripts for Samantha Who? I think that show would be too easy. However, after reading On Writing by Stephen King, his advice to start with situations rather than plot is sound advice for Samantha Who? Put Sam in a situation and see what happens. Too easy. Maybe I’ll write a couple of scripts after all. The more scripts I have to choose from the better.

I won’t be turning on my tv much for the next few months because 1.) most of my favorite shows I can watch online, and 2.) I need to do more reading and writing. I also have to do more social activities. I’ve neglected my personal relationships the past two years. I feel bad in a way, but sometimes my friends can be depressing and I didn’t need to get depressed any more than I’ve already been since my job change.

I also did some job searching. I checked out the information on the Border Patrol. The commercial caught my attention because I heard it mention working outdoors. I’m not sure I want to work outdoors all the time. I’m not even sure I’d qualify now that I have asthma. I’d have to get back in shape (I plan to do that any) but I’m not thrilled with having to wear a uniform (though I wouldn’t have to worry about what to wear everyday). For every con there’s a pro and for every pro there’s a con. Danggit. I’m going to have to see because the Web site also said that there are more than just jobs outdoors. I would love a combination of the two the change up my days. I’m easily bored.

Okay, now an explanation for today’s episode of Shavonne Tv. Well, I shot the video October 20, 2007. I used Curls Curlicious Curls Cleansing Cream, Coconut Sublime Moisturizing Conditioner, Curls Milkshake Leave-in Conditioner, and Quenched Curls Moisturizer. The products did provide moisture and definition to my curls, but while washing this stuff out of my hair, my hair felt really slimy. It could have been the amount of the leave in conditioner I used but (thought I don’t recall using much). I not sure if Curls products are Ph-balanced, which means I won’t be using this on my sensitive scalp. I do recall the products being “organic” though the smell of them say differently. I personally hate the smell of these products - they smell like their names (coconut and milkshake). I prefer my cleansing products to smell like soap. Clean and fresh and not like something I’d eat.

I wouldn’t recommend Curls products unless you have a looser curl pattern and a healthy scalp. I’ve had mine for over a year and only used them once. I plan on giving it all to somebody else. It was a waste of money as I think all four products were $60. Not bad if the products work for you.

Wii Fit

My mom shot this video of me on the Wii Fit. Forgive the shaky video. She can’t seem to steady the camera.

I’ll be kicking off Operation Dreamboat body soon. I have a few inches on my waist I want to get rid of.

I’m going to have to change my diet as well. Less meat and more veggies. I’m still looking for good veggie burger patties I can buy. If I can get my hands on some that aren’t expensive, I’ll be leaving animal flesh behind for good.

Comments

Not too long ago, I turned off the comments on my blog. It wasn’t like I was getting very many comments and I kind of like not knowing who’s reading my blog. Plus, with school, I really didn’t have time to respond to comments. I’m going to try out comments again at shavonne.org. Feel free to leave a comments or two or three (at shavonne.org).

Sorry if you came by my blog looking for more information about Sisterlocks. I don’t have Sisterlocks but I’m considering.

Just two more weekends and I’ll be able to do stuff on the weekends worth blogging about. Like discovering restaurants, getting out of the house, man hunting, etc. These last two weeks are going to be very difficult. I don’t want to write anymore papers or ready any chapters. I’m tired of reading academic stuff (unless it’s about money).

Lost vs Found

I’m completely into Lost this season. For the past 3 years, I’ve been completely puzzled as to why the survivors would want to get of the island. Most of the survivors lived pathetic lives. Jack’s wife left him to start a family with another man. Kate was a fugitive. Sawyer was a con artists hell bent on finding the man who conned his mother. Hurley - an overweight crazy man. And Sayid, Locke, Sun, and Claire? Not much to envy before the crash.

I want to get lost. I would miss my computers and that’s about it.

Have you noticed how the television season isn’t like it used to be? The mid-season breaks are longer, the seasons start really late. I really miss the good old days when all your favorite shows would have their season premieres in September and the season finales in May.

I am so glad I can keep up with the flashbacks and flashforwards or Lost would be very confusing. The Oceanic Six are trying to get back to the island. I want to go with and never be found.

I want what I paid for

When I purchase something, I expect to get what I paid for. That’s the way its supposed to be right?

I purchased some shampoo and conditioner from Justnaturalskincare.com (through Amazon) and when my packaged arrived, the box was dripping liquid. One of the bottles had busted. This has happened before with another brand of organic shampoo (Nature’s Gate Tea Tree Shampoo) but the spill wasn’t so bad so I didn’t email customer service complaining.

But I couldn’t ignore the spill this time. Not when the shampoo costs $20 and all I could salvage was one wash worth of shampoo.

Anyway, the shampoo smells really good. Much better than Nature’s Gate. I’m sure they both will do the same thing, but Just Natural Skin’s Shampoo smells so much better. I don’t even want to get into how good the Conditioner smells.

I’m not slamming Justnaturalskincare.com because they have been very responsive. I wasn’t expecting to get a reply from my email I sent a few hours ago until tomorrow but they got right on it and are shipping my shampoo in the mail tomorrow. I’m happy.

Now for Mavala. This stuff really works. I have put nibbled on my nails in 3 days!. I put my finger in my mouth today and almost cut tongue out. This stuff is that gross. It’s not an instant gross. It’s the kind of gross that intensifies once you start to taste it and pull your finger out your mouth. The only complaint is if you apply it to your nails everyday, it won’t dry. I put some on my nails Sunday and again today and today’s layer doesn’t want to dry. Irritating.

I'm trying

I’m trying to stop blogging but I just can’t. School is almost over and all I can think about is what I can blog/vlog about when I have more time. The places I want to go-the list is so long! After one year of blogging every single day, I find it to be my way of relaxing, of getting stuff off my mind. A stress reliever.


I came across this vlogger’s video on YouTube (I have my own channel but I haven’t made anything in a while) and I absolutely love it. She’s made a valid point about the YouTube haters. Why spend time sheeting on someone who enjoys vlogging (or blogging)? I love blogging. And I’ll love vlogging when I have more time to shoot interesting video.

Nail biting

I ordered this stuff to put on my nails to help me stop biting and I think it’s going to work. It makes my food taste nasty. Mavala reminds me of that time I went to Mexico for my senior class trip and tried smoking cigarettes. When ate dinner that night, I could taste the cigarettes every time I took a bite of my food. It was disgusting. That was the last time I tried smoking. I’m hoping Mavala will have the same affect on my nail biting.

Speaking of food, I’m obsessed with Man vs. Food on the Travel Channel. I so wish I had that job where I travel the country eating the best food all day long. Learned about a couple of places I’d like to dine at when I ever get the chance to travel to Atlanta.

It seems posting video with sound is quite difficult. My attempt at another essence moment was almost a failure. However, you don’t need sound to be able to watch me enjoy good food.

Cake and hairless lady bits

I’ve been procrastinating with this paper I have to write. I still have four more pages to write. I was hoping to just knock it out today but I just don’t feel like dealing with school anymore.

(Note to self: This is paper 1 of 3 you have left to write. You can do it, Shavonne.)

I just really want to read a good book about something other than business. I have about nine books waiting for me.

I went to my third laser hair removal appointment today. This time was more uncomfortable that the first two. I’m starting to rethink my decision to get the brazilian. I also got an idea about laser hair removal. I wonder how long you have to go to school for that. Do you have to go to medical school?

Anyway. My lady bits feel different. I hope it’s working. I would love to wear a bikini without anything hanging out. I hate shaving down there. The stubble is worse than the heat of the laser! If only I could endure waxing but that’s okay.

More video capturing my essence. I was eating some homemade pound cake. It was good. The only thing missing was some soy milk.

Random thoughts about tv and writing

I was watching Lost last night and as usual I couldn’t quite figure out why anyone would want to leave The Island.

I want to get lost on The Island. Away from my 40-hour a week job and 2-hour a day commute.

What would it be like to only have to work 10 hours a week to meet all my basic needs? Wow. That would be so awesome. I wouldn’t know what to do with my time. I could learn to swim. Go hiking. Fish. Lay out on the beach and get a really nice tan. I would get Sawyer to walk around all day without a shirt so I can stare at his man nipples.

But I wouldn’t be able to eat my new favorite snack- Breyers Lactose-free Vanilla Bean ice cream and Honey Bunches of Oats with Almonds cereal. Yum yum. I discovered this by accident. I haven’t been able to get to the store to buy my soy milk and I really wanted some cereal.

I wouldn’t be able to eat my ice creamy crunch. I could live with that if I meant I could live on The Island.

I’ve been squeezing in some time to read Stephen King’s On Writing. I like the book though it doesn’t give much practical advice on writing. What I like most about the book is how he says he doesn’t focus on plot. He prefers situations. I can imagine that was how Lost was created. What if a plane crashed on a remote and mystical island and the survivors discovered other inhabitants? I’ll never understand why the survivors would want to leave The Island. At first, The Island was scary but when the focus shifted from the mysteriousness of The Island and onto the Others, I kind of lost interest in the show. But it’s getting better. The six people who managed to get off of The Island are trying to go back. That’s what I’m talking about.

Anyway. I’m going to try focusing on putting a character or characters in a situation to see where they go.

Anyways, I came across a couple of stories about the status of Hollywood and a couple of shows I’ve been watching. I’m not sure I like the direction Grey’s Anatomy is going. I don’t get Izzy’s dead boyfriend. And I thought it was kind of weird that she was having great sex with someone who’s dead. That’s one hell of an imagination but I can say I know what a good imagination and a sturdy pair of hands can do.